Chapter 1: The Week Leading Up

So it's Sunday night, August 12th and I am sitting here listening to Fill Me Up by Jesus Culture. Part of the lyrics are:

You provide the fire and I'll provide the sacrifice.
You provide the spirit and I will open up inside.
Fill me up God. Fill me up God. Fill me up God.
Fill me up.

God has provided a fire for us as believers, which is the burning passion to reach the lost. My sacrifice is giving my life to Him to become a missionary to witness to the unsaved regions of the world and I am literally laughing with tears in my eyes because in the end, it's really no sacrifice at all. I get to serve a loving, just, merciful God and I get to distribute those traits to nonbelievers as my CAREER. I am blessed to be able to be stripped away from the ways of this world and follow God to the ends of the earth, preaching the gospel and reaching the lost. I'm sorry if this comes off repetitive but I just can't seem to wrap my mind around it. I'm astonished. 

God has sent the spirit and to open up inside is for me to give up the ways of the world... to give up sorrow, depression, low self esteem, peer pressure, doubt, criticism, judgment and to have the God of the universe on my side fighting every single battle, overcoming every torment and loving me unconditionally.

I am asking God to fill me up, so at times I am going to be emptied in order to be filled up again, and right now I must say I am being emptied to the core. I tend to feel low at these moments but I am so full of joy because I am realizing the God of all the heavens is investing His time into me to shape me, grow me and challenge me to be better because He has CHOSEN me to do a great work THROUGH Him and I just couldn't be more ecstatic and I don't know if it will ever fully set in. 

Here is the link to the song I am referring to. I encourage you to take a moment to listen to it and just pray that God would fill you up to the depths of your being. 

God bless!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmJUjUbonxY